i dunno whether this will help,
but the purpose of setting up a blog in the first place was
to have a platform for me to voice out all my frustrations
and ranting so i wont have to trouble anyone else by calling them in the middle of the nite and pouring out my sorrows to them.
im not saying they are not good frenz,
but i always believe that everyone has their own problems.
and if they have more than enough problems to worry for,
why should i add on to it?
and also im not really a person who goes around calling ppl, pouring out grievances.
hence, a blog like this sounds like a feasible idea for throwing all anger and frustrations.
that being said,
i really just want to get on with my life.
not that im not getting on.
but i dunno why i will get affected by this matter.
is it really because i just want to win?
or is it like wat ella said, its my freshest wound.
that is why i will be so bothered.
im having mixed feelings about this whole incident.
im living on fine as it is, but whenever the name pops up,
i will feel uneasy.
this whole matter is pulling me down.
i just want to get on with my life.
i should be cheonging for my assignments,
but my mind just cannot focus.
many tell me that in order to forget the past,
jump into a new rs. it will help.
as ur attention will be diverted to someone else.
but how do u "jump" into another rs when u are still affected by the past?
my set of theory is that u don need someone else to forget somebody.
everyone is rebuking my set of theory but i shall prove it.
there is an explanation to my theory.
if u hastily jump into a rs just to forget about the past,
and this rs doesnt work out,
den u will be on ur journey to "jumping" into another boat
to forget the previous one.
den it becomes a cycle.
and before u noe it,
u are trapped in this cycle.
my circle of frenz are practicing this theory.
and look what they got themselves in?
i don mean to offend anyone.
but really, if u spend sometime to think it through,
it does make sense.
and though im still wide awake now,
i feel better getting this off my chest.
